Thursday, October 11, 2012

Disappointed


I have been away from the blogosphere for a little while now. There have been a lot of things going on with my life, and oops, sorry for not sharing it here--small victories, happiness, laughters, and even little tears. But there is nothing worth blogging than the disappointment I am feeling right now. I just can't afford to have this pass without pouring out everything here. So I think I have to say sorry first before I continue. I am sorry, dear readers, for this outburst. Don't worry, I shall smile after this. 

This is not a blame game. I am not even sure whom to blame, but I think it is not right to do so. There are just instances wherein you have been expecting a lot from a particular person because you believed in his/her capabilities to perform a particular task according to how you expected it to be. But life could be so tricky. Twists come and oftentimes, you are not prepared for its arrival. All along, you have been looking forward to a perfect output, and just to end up disappointed for it is not what you expected it to be. And what do you get? Just the mere utterance of the word "sorry." You cannot even see them exert an effort to prove that they really mean what they said. How's that? What I am supposed to do with this person? I am done with the reprimands. Well, I think I just have to wait. More waiting. And let time heal this bad feeling inside. 

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There will be a lot of things at stake and will be blamed at you once you become the editor-in-chief of the school paper. I have not felt the heaviness of such responsibility before I became one, and being the EIC in the high school paper before and now in college, is far different. This is more DIFFICULT, and more serious. 

People whom you thought would help you will become the same people who will be the source of a major disappointment. Sorry but I cannot share the story here. 

What I can do now is just to move my head, rethink of what happened for ten million times, and utter "I'm sorry" to the people whom I have also accidentally disappointed. I am actually just a victim here, although not the purely innocent one, but since I am the head of the publication, the justification that I did not know about what happened will not suffice the anger of those who are disappointed at me. 

My words might sound topsy-turvy. Sorry for that. I just can't seem to be right with my thoughts at this moment. 

I'll be back with a happier tone soon. And a lot of goofy pictures. As of now, thanks for dropping by.



14 comments:

  1. Kung nasa isang 'team' kayo nakaka-disappoint nga yan. Hehe. Well wish you happiness nalang.

    * Pareng Jay was here

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    1. parang ako lang yung coach and the players are not doing so well with their game. but life's like that. :) thanks pareng jay

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  2. well just a proof life isn't perfect after all nobody is and nobody will ever be

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    1. that is really right mecoy. thank you for dropping by. :)

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  3. Oh Linday...what can I say...Welcome to the club! wahahahahahah...you'll get by...it will pass, I KNOW! :)

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  4. hayaan mo na sila orange pulps! show em you can do it! aja! :)

    lavinajampit.blogspot.com

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  5. okay lang yun. wag kang ma stress sa mga people. ;-) hope youre okay now.

    just me,
    www.phioxee.com

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  6. I know whose this person is, co'z we have been discussing and talking this often. I just hope we can have a swift pace of our plans and activities so as to facilitate no disappointments and misunderstanding.

    I believed being busy is not a reason to delay responsibilities. Once got to this part. Hope to get this well soon. God Bless!

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  7. That's life :) You'll become a better person because of those twists :) Smile, and you'll see how you grow and learn from these things ;>

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  8. oohh i know that feeling. u r giving everything pero it turns out kulang pa rin and they always put the blame on u, second if a member falls, everybody does same as if the leader falls, same thing happened to the members. take some time, breathe deeply, inhale fresh air then start all over again, trust what u can do for urself, keep d trust sa sarili mo, ul go through with this.

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  9. Happy New year! Kaka discover ko lang ng blog mo hehehe

    Sana maging ok ang lahat sayo... smile smile na diyan...

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  10. Disappointment .. proof that we are human pero 2013 is a new year to start it right..

    HAPPY NEW YEAR! smile!

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  11. I apologize for being one. Ngayon ko lang pinagtiyagaang basahin ang blog mo and it felt like... Ahhh, isa ako sa mga taong ito. At dahil march na. I congratulate you for the job well done. Success for your career Rolynzkieee.

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